As we go through these peaks and valleys, I'm not as bewildered as I am jaded with the whole thing. At first, I took offense to all things negative; and when I say negative, I am not referring to any of the constructive criticism -- this is the wrong field to be in if you are insecure. Now, I do a Kanye-shrug whenever I run into the negativity. If I got a nickel for all the times we've heard 'this is a definite placement' I'd be writing this blog from a beach house in Eleuthera right now. Moreover, what's it gonna take for some of these called 'super-producers' to understand that there will be no stroking of any sort? So you, your ego and whatever else your coons and groupies usually stroke can kick rocks -- I didn't sign up for that, sorry. Alas, there is always the animosity that either blatantly or silently rear its ugly head. But haters flatter me so whatever, I only have a problem with it when it precludes progress.
I'm sure my love-hate relationship with music now makes sense to most people while it doesn't. After all, why stick with something if you keep getting all these setbacks? *sigh* Despite the asinine people and the countless struggles, I'm still smitten. And I always will be. I guess that's why good things are beginning to unfold.